|Seth petting Turtle Girl while she eats|
Music and poetry have always had a big influence on me. Many years ago, when I was a teenager, my heart was broken. I felt -- I don't know how to describe how I felt, but it wasn't good. It was during the mid 1960's. Simon and Garfunkle had released the song, "I am a Rock." I fixed the record player where it would play the song over and over again, and I fell asleep listening to it. When I woke up, I felt different. I felt stronger emotionally and much less likely to get my feelings hurt. In some ways, those words, "A rock feels no pain" served me well, but now I think they also put a damper on my ability to express excitement and joy.
I worked on developing an outward show of excitement for a while, but it just felt -- well, fake -- like it was a struggle, like it was something I was forcing myself to do for the benefit of those around me, who often comment on my lack of enthusiasm when something great is going on.
It isn't that I don't feel joy or excitement, I just don't express it outwardly. It does come out on its own though, in a genuine sense of pleasure when I greet family and friends, especially those I haven't seen for a while, when I see my children and grandchildren or pictures of them on Facebook or email. Cute animal pictures and videos of the wonderful things people can do always bring forth that feeling of wonder and joy. It comes out when I get a good hug from someone I love, not one of those half hearted limp arm obligatory exchanges that leaves neither participant feeling much of anything due to the encounter.
On a daily basis, most of us are up and down in our vibrational output, so we get a little bit of crappy stuff and mostly good stuff (if you stop to notice all the things in your life that you appreciate, you'll see I'm right).
As I understand it, we attract a combination of stuff based on the vibrations we put out, so would I attract even more good stuff into my life if I were to be able to develop that outward show of excitement?
According to what I've read, the universe doesn't distinguish the difference in what we feel and what we imagine we are feeling, which is why daydreaming is important in the attraction of the things we want. So if I imagine I'm excited, even if that vision feels false, what is my vibration? Low or high? I don't know.
I can't even begin to conjure up a vision of me jumping up and down in excitement like the contestants on "The Price is Right" -- over anything!
The problem with this is that if Ronnie were to walk through the door right now, I'd say something like "Gee! it's so good to see you! I'm glad you're back" I'd hug him long and tight. I'd feel excited that he'd come back, but he would walk away, saying to himself. "She didn't seem very glad to see me."
It's happened before. Of course he hadn't come back from the dead, but you get the point. He and I had numerous discussions about my lack of ability to show enthusiasm. However, I didn't connect the song with this inability to show my joy, until I gained a better understanding of this vibrational world we live in and how our subconscious mind works. It never sleeps. So while I was snoozing, the words to that song were lodging in my subconscious mind.
|Pink Cleome and red Princess Feathers|
According to all that I've read about vibration, the more we can find to be happy about, the higher our vibration is and the more good things come to us, so when I feel down, I watch the video again. It always lifts my spirits and puts me back in the higher vibration.
The more we watch sad videos of cruelty and neglect, war and it's atrocities, illness and tragic deaths, the lower our vibration goes and the more likely it becomes that some kind of low vibration stuff will enter our lives in one form or another. There is a bit of information that apparently has never gained widespread acceptance and that is, we CAN NOT get sad enough to help those who are in bad situations. We can watch the videos all we want and announce to our Facebook community how much we agonized over it, but while we are doing that and even while we are typing it out, we are in a very low vibration and the law of attraction isn't concerned with whether we want something awful to happen in our reality, it is only matching up vibrations.
I refuse to watch that low vibration stuff that comes my way on Facebook and further more, I remove it from my newsfeed. I've begun blocking those who repeatedly post this stuff.
The more thought we give to something the bigger it gets, so why not give our attention to the stuff that makes us feel good?
Several years ago, I decided to try it for a month just to see if anything would change. So I got a spiral notebook. I wrote the date and time at the top of the page and I began with this affirmation : "As I begin this day, my dominant intent is to feel good. Nothing is more important or more essential to my wellbeing than that I feel good, so today, regardless of where I am, what I'm doing, who is with me or what is going on around me, I will look for things to be pleased about." Right from the beginning, I realized I FELT better. I felt more cheerful, more certain that even the worst times in my life will work out to at least an okay resolution.
Over the years, it has gotten steadily better. I'm not talking about material things. In that category, I'm pretty much in the same place I was twenty years ago, but I feel better, I feel stronger, I'm more energetic and happier than I have ever been before and THAT means more to me than all the money in the world.
Keep in mind that we all owe it to ourselves and our Creator to enjoy as much of this life as possible. So look for joy in everything you have to do.