Writing takes a lot of time.When I write a blog post, I may work on it for several weeks before I click on the "publish" tab.
Writing novels requires a time commitment that I have let other things, such as blogging, interrupt. I am at page 178 in the third novel in the Kirkland Family Saga, "When Hell Freezes Over". I thought when I started this story that I would be able to get it written inside a year. I was well on my way when Ronnie got sick, three years ago. I didn't write at all during the year before he passed on and very little since then. After making some changes, I'm still right around the same page count that I had three years ago.
I have had to start a new life where I feel obligated to do the things that he did before. I haven't been able to shake off the sense of value, the work ethic that I developed while being married to him for 45 years.
I work three days a week at the flower shop, then most of my four off, in the yard. I try to keep the trees and shrubs alive, tend to Ronnie's thriving pigeon flock, keep my car clean, take it out to get the oil changed and the tires rotated, keep the tags, inspection and insurance current. I try to keep the house tidy like he and I always enjoyed, but it gets messy. Deidre and I are both a little bit scattered brained and Seth certainly doesn't help us with our inability to focus on much of anything until it is completely finished.
I play with Seth. I play with my dogs. I watch Texas Ranger's baseball every night during the regular season. I was actually kinda glad they didn't make it to post season so I could have my life back.
I feel responsible to continue Ronnie's passions and yet they interfere with my own. My passion has always been writing, primarily fiction. I've enjoyed this blog because it gives me a place to share stuff that isn't going to show up in my novels - but it is also consuming my time as surely as the yard work and all the other stuff he always took care of.
I have decided to discontinue my association with Toastmasters. I've enjoyed every minute of the TM meetings but writing speeches and practicing is another time consumer that I need to let go of - at least until I get myself back on a novel writing path.
So I'm not going to be here for a while. I'm going to be out on a fictional ranch with a bunch of figments of my imagination until this book has "THE END -- or maybe not" written on the last page. After all, I already have the title of the fourth book in the Saga -- "When Hell Broke Loose" -- and baseball season starts again in April.
"…By what stretch of arrogance do you think a life form that looks like you is more important than a life form that doesn’t?”Joel Salatin
Nothing is more beneficial to your wellbeing than to look for and acknowledge those parts of everyday life that you enjoy.
"If you are happy where you are now, why does it matter how painful it was to get there?" -- Abraham
"It is no bad thing to celebrate a simple life." -- Bilbo Baggins a.k.a. The Hobbit by JRR Tolkien
"And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet, and the winds long to play in your hair." -- Kahill Gibran
“And forget not