"…By what stretch of arrogance do you think a life form that looks like you is more important than a life form that doesn’t?”Joel Salatin

Nothing is more beneficial to your wellbeing than to look for and acknowledge those parts of everyday life that you enjoy.

"If you are happy where you are now, why does it matter how painful it was to get there?" -- Abraham

"It is no bad thing to celebrate a simple life." -- Bilbo Baggins a.k.a. The Hobbit by JRR Tolkien

"And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet, and the winds long to play in your hair." -- Kahill Gibran

“And forget not

Monday, December 23, 2013

My Window

There is no better place on earth,
Than right here by my window. 

Just outside, the babbling brook
Gives drink to squirrel and sparrow.

The peace that's here is mine to hold,
I offer it to others

But only those bold enough
To let go of their drama.

Worry is not welcome here;
It really has no purpose.

It wreaks great  havoc on the mind
And banishes the quiet.

There isn't a prettier place on earth
Than right here by my window.

I watch and listen to the world wake up
As I sit and count my blessings.

I love it here -- where he and I
Have lived out most our lives.

I see him all around me
In the birds and rampant vines.

And I think of him, how good he was –
Way down deep inside,

Beneath the layers of  stubborn distrust.
What is this life about?
      There isn't a more peaceful place on earth

      Than right here by my window.

Life is different since he passed,
But now I see it's more -- not less -- as I sit here by my window.


Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Karma -- what is it?

Sunrise Tuesday 12.3.13

Well, day 2 of the Desire and Destiny 21 Day Challenge (DD21DC) doesn't ask, "what do I want?" after all, so I don't have to address that issue yet.

One thing I see in these kinds of programs is that they are on a limited time schedule, so they ask these deep questions which may or may not bring forth an immediate answer, but they don't give the listener time to answer fully.  So I'm figuring out that if I want to receive the benefits of meditating, I'll have to give some of these questions more thought after I finish the day's meditation. Homework -- but I know it's going to be worth it.

BTW, I purchased the unlimited download of the DD21DC so I can go back through each day and keep up my practice of meditating. It also enables me to listen to what is said again and again in order to help me understand more fully and to pass the information along to those of you who are interested.

Today's subject was "karma".  What is it?  Most of us think of it in terms of "she did something mean so she's gonna get what's coming to her later." That's fairly accurate in a negative sense. But "karma" also works the other way. When we do nice things, that also comes back to us.

Karma turns our actions good and bad into boomerangs. Most of us put out some good and some bad daily so what we get back is a mix of blessings and curses.  One of the interesting things about all this is that because time passes between the thought boomerang leaving our hand (mind) and returning to us, we often forget about the thought or action we put out, so when the boomerang comes back, it bonks us in the head and we wonder, "Why the hell did that happen?" or "Where does this shit come from?"

The good news is that we have choices to make in each moment as to how we are going to behave or react and the choices we make effect our "karmic patterns".

As an example, let's say I'm pissed off.  I've been at work all day.  My feet hurt and I'm mad  -- because the shop is freezing, 51 degrees.  I go to pick up hamburgers and when I get home, they have my order all wrong.

To start with, I had a choice way back at the beginning of the day. I COULD HAVE asked that the heat be turned on for a little while, but me being who I am, I just put on another shirt (that made 4 layers) and continued to bitch quietly to myself  that it's too F-ing cold in there.

Some of you are wondering what does the shop being cold have to do with my order for hamburgers being all wrong? Herein lies the part of the problem with understanding the way our thoughts and especially our emotions work to bring about what we are living.  I spent six hours in a bad mood mostly because I was cold.  That's not an earth shattering vibration, so what came back to me a few hours later is also not an earth shattering vibration, it's just irritating -- just like being cold.

I had already made a mountain out of a mole hill by letting the temperature of the shop irritate me so much, but when I realized that the hamburger order being wrong, may have been the universe's response to me being so irritated because I was cold, I realized I had to handle the burger order being wrong better than I had handled the shop being cold or no telling what irritating thing would come next.   I know now that I have to get in a better mood in order to stop the flow of what I don't want.

For those of us who live  this mixture of good and bad, life feels ok.  It's acceptable.  We live for the good times, but if we could gain control of or change our karmic pattern by simply realizing that being mad or irritated doesn't serve us well at all, we could bring in more of the good stuff.  When we look for reasons to smile, for reasons to be happy more of the time it has a snowball effect.  Will bad times always come? Yes, of course, but, if you pay attention to the way you feel and make a concerted effort to stay in a good mood regardless what else is going on, the bad stuff won't come as frequently.

I know people who just seem to skate through life. They are always smiling because somehow, they have figured out that the better it gets, the better it gets.  I also know people who experience one disaster after another, because they have never figured out that the more they talk about their bad times, the worse it's going to get.

The law of attraction does not judge whether something is right or wrong, wanted or not wanted.  It matches up vibrations. Period.  So does Karma. And the sooner we figure that out, the better off we will all be.

Monday, December 2, 2013

Who am I?

lovely sunset November 2013
In the late '80's,  John Denver sang a song, "Looking for Space".  In it, like many songs of that era, he says, "I'm looking for space and to find out who I am."

Even though I had an incredible love for John Denver and his music, often, I had no idea what he was talking about.  How could anyone not know who they are?

I assumed I was Paula Johnson Bruno, high school dropout, wife, mother, daughter, flower shop worker bee, over worked and under paid, certainly under appreciated especially by me, closeted writer, lowly nobody from the "wrong" area of town (by that I mean not ridiculously prosperous), someone no body would remember except my immediate family.

Then at some point I realized that things are not what they seem and I embarked on a journey to find a better way to make the most of this gift we call "life".

Laverne's White clematis vine 2013
Recently, in that search, I discovered "meditating".  All my life, I had considered meditating something that monks and weirdoes did, but as science catches up with spiritual, I find that meditating every day has more benefits -- eventually -- than I have time to list.

I did the first "21 Day Meditation Challenge with Opra and Deepak Chopra" in October, then started the second one, "Desire and Destiny" in November so I could continue to cultivate the habit of meditating every morning.

Meditating is basically "quieting the mind", slowing down the chatter that goes on non stop, 24/7 for most of us. It involves paying attention to the breath, which, by the way, I had never given much thought except regarding how I feel when I can't catch mine.

But breathing is the most important body function we have. Without it, nothing else happens -- for long. So it is worth shining the light of appreciation on the fact that breath literally means "life", at least physical life.

On Day One of the "Desire and Destiny 21 Day Challenge" the listener is encouraged to ask the question, "Who am I?"

Have you ever asked yourself that?

It's one of the "soul questions" that, when answered can lead us to a deeper understanding of who we are and what we really want. The instructions said, "ask, then listen for the answer."

So, I asked and waited, asked and waited.  At first the only thing that came to mind was "I don't know", then general, all encompassing thoughts began to come like "child of the universe", "spiritual being" and "energy essence" which are probably true but didn't help much in answering the question, "Who am I?" but after about three days of asking myself that occasionally, I received this "word cloud".

My Chamo Kitty Cat

"Paula Bruno, writer, animal lover, birds, pigeons, turtle enthusiast, flowers, water catchment, gardener, plants, parrots, hummingbirds, moths, butterflies, dragonflies, rabbits, food, nostalgic signs, purple, red, tan, horses, cowboys, baseball, writing, poetry, western, local, designer, inspired and inspiring, meditation, enlightened, truth, compassionate, understanding, loved, loving, kind, kinder, and kindest, happy, joyful, interested, enthusiastic, law of attraction, Abraham, Seth, me, consciousness, appreciation, gratitude, quiet, family, laid back, tolerant, easy, nature, trees, grass, flowers, good will, rest, relaxation, fun, people, new ideas, friends, family, home, neat, clean, beautiful."

All of those words have something to do with who I am or who I want to be.

Notice nothing negative came in the word cloud that I received.  This description of me and what I want to be has a completely different feel than the first description I put down of who I once thought I was.

There is no point, no good to be had from listing all our negative qualities and failures, to beating our self up with them our whole life.  If you do that, stop it.  Right this minute.

It is sad to me that many of us live most of our lives with little understanding of how this all works and why we are here. It is even sadder that we live most of our life feeling the way we do about ourselves,

that we are "less than" in so many ways, for so
many different reasons -- when actually there is no such thing as one person being more important or more worthy than another.

I am a beginner at meditating.  I admit, that so far, I have not had any of the "wonderful" experiences that many who meditate claim to have.  But my feet feel better.  My knees are back to normal. I feel better than I ever have in my entire life.  That's worth a whole lot to me.

Day Two asks, "what do I want?" Believe it or not, that question wasn't any easier to answer.