"…By what stretch of arrogance do you think a life form that looks like you is more important than a life form that doesn’t?”Joel Salatin

Nothing is more beneficial to your wellbeing than to look for and acknowledge those parts of everyday life that you enjoy.

"If you are happy where you are now, why does it matter how painful it was to get there?" -- Abraham

"It is no bad thing to celebrate a simple life." -- Bilbo Baggins a.k.a. The Hobbit by JRR Tolkien

"And forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet, and the winds long to play in your hair." -- Kahill Gibran

“And forget not

Saturday, May 10, 2014

My Pursuit of Happiness

#100happydays Aerial view of my backyard sanctuary
My feet are not happy.  They hurt. The left one has felt a wee bit swollen in the instep.  When it first began a few weeks ago, I took lots of Advil, then Aleve and then Tylenol but nothing relieved the pain. As usual, my thoughts began to run along the lines of "maybe I should go to the doctor".

Then I realized I'm not willing to get drawn into having surgery, or taking expensive drugs which usually create more problems than they fix, which would eventually lead to more pills and more problems. I've been there before.

Unfortunately, it looks like our health care system is not about "healing" anymore. It's all about money. The evidence of that is clear enough. Doctors and Pharmaceutical companies now are millionaires and billionaires. And our nation is sicker than it has ever been before.

It took a while, but eventually I remembered that everything is about vibration. The lower a person feels, the lower they vibrate. Nothing makes me feel lower than having ongoing pain. But I also know that staying in this low vibration perpetuates the pain in
my foot. So it's sort of a vicious cycle.

I know the only way to feel better is to get in a higher vibration, so I joined an
online community which encourages participants to post at least one happy moment every day on Facebook with a #100happydays preceding it. It helps keep me aware that beauty and happiness are all around me every single day. I just have to take the time to notice.

#100happydays Fresh light brown eggs
from Michelle Obama Too

I googled "yoga poses for foot problems" and found some exercises.
I also decided to do my third 21 day meditation challenge, Finding Your Flow, with Deepak Chopra and Oprah. Instead of sitting comfortably in a chair, though, I've been sitting on my yoga mat on the floor. The stretching helps my feet and my knees.

I also found a chart which tells what physical ailments correspond with which thought
patterns or beliefs. It said that pain in the instep "indicates an unwillingness
to move forward."

I thought that was interesting. I've spent quite a bit of time trying to figure out what part of my life I might be unwilling to move forward. But trying to sort through this is a low vibration endeavor.  In other words, it doesn't feel good to  ponder emotionally charged events of the past and how they might be effecting me now.  It keeps me stuck in a low vibration during which the Law of Attraction is lining up low vibration stuff and delivering it to me in the form of clogged sewer pipes, dead grass, Texas Rangers losing game after game, a patio cover that continues to leak despite all the Arrowhead Roofing crew has done to fix it. Nothing major, just aggravating crap.

Then on Day 2 of "Finding Your Flow", Oprah discusses the fact that we can "feel" happy or we can "be" happy.  Feeling happy is easily sidetracked by life.  For example, you're tooling along, minding your own business, feeling good, and some jerk cuts you off in traffic.  His inconsiderate dangerous behavior not only scares you and pisses you off, it causes you to catch the next light which causes you to be late for work.  It takes some of us all day to get over that. Some of us have such a stream of "traffic events" we EXPECT traffic to be crazy and infuriating -- and the Law of Attraction delivers it every day until we get so accustomed to traffic being hazardous, we begin to see that as a fact. All other drivers are crazy!

#100happydays Peggy's honeysuckle
"Being" happy, however, is a deep inside knowing that we are pleased with life and ourselves and how things are going in general.  It isn't easy to disrupt "being" happy. Storms come and go but when we "are" happy, we recognize that everything passes.

I came face to face with this one morning about six months after Ronnie passed on. His illness and his passing had snuffed out my ability to "be" happy.  My life, even after he was gone, was changing so fast, it made me want to just shut down, close the blinds, go back to bed and stay there.

Then one morning, as I sat on the side of my bed, I realized that I felt different.  I took a moment to pay attention to it.  I felt lighter. I felt  -- okay. I even felt a little bit happy. I realized the years stretching out ahead of me held much more good than bad and for the first time since Ronnie was diagnosed, I knew I was going to be okay, that everything was going to be fine.

 "Being" happy does not depend on the presence or behavior of others and this is where I hit the "tidbit of information" that I needed to start getting my feet back to being happy.

For years, I have been listening to Abraham say that we humans want everyone to behave the way we want them to so that we can be happy.  I haven't paid much attention to this because I've always believed I was willing for others to be who they are.  I don't make many judgments about what others are doing.  I like most people and I enjoy discovering the ways they are different from me.

But there is one person in my life who absolutely drives me nuts.  I've been trying to figure out how to deal with this person for a long time now and suddenly, in the midst
#100happydays Turtle Boy shows up 2014
of my feet aching, I realized I really do wish this person would behave differently so I could stop stressing out about it and my feet would stop hurting.
I also know that this person (TP) is not going to change. TP has her/his own life and his/her own agenda, and pleasing me is not at the top of the list. I've known this for a long time.  That doesn't matter. What I had not realized is that my bitching and griping about the things TP does that irritate me and sometimes thoroughly piss me off just keep me in the low vibration that attracts foot pain and clogged sewer pipes and leaking patio covers and the Rangers not being able to get their game on.

The first breakthrough came when I acknowledged to myself that I can't change anything about this person.  I can not force this person to respect me or appreciate me in the manner I think would be appropriate. I can only change the way I respond to this person and the things she/he does and says.

I had let this person derail my ability to "feel" happy, but as soon as I heard Oprah make a distinction between "feeling" happy and "being" happy, I felt a shift in my perspective.  I felt my spirit rise.  I realized that even through all the hard times with TP, I could still "be" happy in spite of all TP dishes out -- because my "being happy" is exactly that.  It is my state of being.

#100happydays Purple clematis
As soon as I made the connection and began to remind myself often that I am happy, my feet gave me a few minutes of relief every once in a while and it's been getting better and better ever since.

I am walking around the house bare foot and pain free for the first time in several weeks.  I just love this stuff!

"If you're happy and ya know it, clap your hands! " Acknowledging that you are happy on a consistent basis is a high vibration. It says" thank you for all my blessings" to whatever higher power you believe in and it leads to feeling good!  It leads to better things, better life.

By the way, I'm not telling anyone not to go to the doctor.  I'm just relating my experience with taking a little time to figure out what's going on with me. The blessings of many happy days to you all!